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4/7/10 09:57 pm - reminiscing...

 I MISS OM ): 

OM Singapore's in 2 days! Don't know why I seem to be pretty excited for it although I'm not going to be participating in it anymore...I guess it's the mentoring work. Five of us were helping the Sec 3 team today after school! FIVE of us leh. Haha they should totally feel honoured. But it was fun, and after a while we started zihighing ourselves, as we blocked their performance. I MISS OM ): We were saying we'll join the open category after A Levels'! HAHA. And then they'll mistake us for Div 2 again LOL.

Mmm anyway the Div 3 team. Haha they're quite ke lian; we were making them do their rehearsals at the quadrangle...with their costumes on for like the first 3 or something. But they're seriously natural OM actors lah so it wasn't hard. We are strict 'cos we want them to do well >< jiayou, Div 3! Go kick youknowwho's asses xD And my Div 2 Sec 2 team! They're seriously cute lah (: I hope they'll get something! And omg they're so much more artistic than us with 3 or 4 of them in aep? Makes pau and I feel so zibei for our team ahaha.

And this means that a whole year has passed since the crazy period in 2009...can't say that it has been short, but it wasn't totally very very long ago either. But I guess some times are better off as memories rather than to go through it a second time, because they usually won't be the same anymore.

1/23/10 10:41 am - 22/01/10

16th SLCOT first GM <3

I don't know exactly what to say, other than the feeling extremely old part, and of course the reminiscing. Fetching the juniors from the side gate into hwachong, through the familiar paths to Ortus Room; that was a period of mixed feelings I guess. Feeling high excited but yet somehow low emotional. Standing from the back of the room this time, it really gives us a whole new perspective. Thinking back about how we were sitting there having icebreakers being introduced to SLC just one year ago; it's unbelievable unimaginable that time flies so fast. Five months may sound like a long time, but at the end of it all you'll realise it really isn't.

On another note, it's heartwarming and awesome to see 15th SLCOT again <3 And, HAPPY 16TH, KAYHIAN! :D though we've not met for quite some time, there is still the sense of familiarity when we see each other. To have the 15th progs reunited with Gary back too feels really good, though there are some stuff that are inevitable. I wish 16th progs all the best (: treasure the time, every single minute of it, even if there are times when things seem dire, because you'll only realise how much you miss it when all of it ends.

Jiayou, 16th SLCOT! (:

1/18/10 05:57 pm

Third week into school!

Somehow I feel that the pace of life now's going really slow? Like really totally slow in comparison to last year's crazy one. Which is good probably, that I finally have time to breathe. Mmm not bad, am keeping to my resolutions which is a record because my past years' ones never made past the first few days..feels good to sleep early (yes do you know that for the first time in my entire sec school life people actually commented i sleep early?), sleep enough, pay attention focus in class. At this point I'll like to comment that I'm feel very moved by myself LOL. My determination is awesome lah ahaha. But aish it's..boring yeah. I think it's hard to come to a compromise and though I am starting to mentor for OM and SLC is coming soooooon (:D), I'm still free free lah, haha. Mmm k nvm focus focus sec 4 gotta keep my mind on acads ><

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1/7/10 05:07 pm

you'll only truly understand the importance to you when you lose it

I lost my wallet just now, but fortunately got it back soon after, which was really lucky. But in between there was this half-hour period or so when I was freaking out? I did some thinking during that, made a few realisations too. Mmmm.

1/6/10 08:07 pm - a good start (:

It's fast; it seems just like yesterday when we were "AHH SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW!" and 3 days have passed. 

Mmmm as the title suggests, I guess these 3 days have been a good start for me, for 2010? Have been keeping strictly to my goals for this year, and am sleeping at decent timings early early! Though I'm getting like a more-than-7h sleep every night, it's still a LITTLE hard to stay awake throughout alllll the lessons in class, I realise >< If you don't take stuff like chicken essence or something in the morning lah. K that's besides the point but yay I'm focusing moreA LOT MORE in class haha. Couple of teachers changed this year, with Ms Yeo being our Math teacher which Shiyan is very jealous of, Mr Sit for Chem which might be interesting with his unique humour, Chen LaoShi for Chinese who can get really fierce (and scary) if she needs to despite her small frame.

JIAYOU EVERYONE! It's the last last year in Nanyang omgosh >< saw Rebecca and HongKai today it seems so weird that they're out of this school already! It's like just yesterday okay maybe not yesterday, not long ago, that I still see them in hongzi. Man, gotta treasure treasure the last year before we cross the bridge. When that comes it'll be quite weird too but we'll come to that when it comes lol.

Tomorrow's Telematch with the Sec Ones, I hope we get them highhhhh. Because today's cheering session was not really very good >< can't be helped 'cos when I was Sec One I didn't dare to cheer out loud too if not people will give you the weird stare. It's just council which made all of us 厚脸皮 xD

Look out, NYSC's gonna be Crazy Through-out the whole Telematch and Hefty Hoist you out of your lowness! HAHA.

1/3/10 12:13 pm

2009 has been the most eventful year of...my entire life so far? 15th SLC was undoubtly the highlight of all my events happening last year, but I guess what's more can be the fact that at the same time there were more. Juggling the former with other commitments like OM, SMP, MRP and (I know this doesn't count but) 301, was probably the highlight of 2009. 

Managing everything together hasn't been easy but somehow it could have been a whole lot harder if I didn't have a contrasting commitment, SLC <3, besides the hectic acads-focused life (And speaking of this I think I'll offend some people but I really cannot imagine how they can have no other non-acads commitments, other than their CCA. It's pretty admirable really.) OM, where it was really different from the first time in 2008 when we went for the competition. 2009's OM had the stress of coming out with a trophy where it inevitably took out most of the fun aspect. But we did it, though we got third but DASH knows that our performance aspect did better than this particular school which was enough for us, haha. SMP, where it was somehow a no-choice, since-you're-in-this-class-you-should-know-you-have-to-take-SMP-if-not-schoolbased thing. And it ended up with me having a project which I've frankly never really enjoyed till the report part, and yes that's how bad it is, I actually loved the report writing. MRP, ah that was alright, quite fun actually probably because I've got seriously a bunch of capable people (actually everyone in my class except for me probably is capable). 301, I cannot believe I survived it this year, and I'm still wondering how I did. When the first half of the year ended, I felt as though I've been dreaming throughout 90% of the lessons in class, and frankly doubt if I learnt much. It's like learning everything taught in the first half of the year from scratch (like "huh did I even hear about this during the lesson?!") when I started doing revision for the EOYs. Torturous, and when it comes to this one of my resolutions for 2010 is to really focus in class. In 2009, most of the time when I seem awake in class is when I'm panicking about my OG concept or games which were due yet haven't submitted. Or during the period when I guess everyone was worrying about whether hateful H1N1 alert will turn green/yellow/orange/red. And when it gets too much and I just couldn't take it anymore, it's when the very first time I slept openly in class in Nanyang (in council uniform). Which ended up with one of my teachers asking my dad during PTM "Does your daughter play computer games till late at night?" Which he exploded at. TMI I think, but it's in the past at least. That summarises the first half of the year for 2009, and for the next it was mostly Teachers' Day with Sab, August Camp, NYAV elections, EOYs, Ground Zero.

It's the time for 2010's resolutions?

- Main priority will be academics
- Maximise time usage, sleep at decent timings, thus focus in class
- Be a dependable senior, a good advisor for 16th, OM, TDC, Council
- Fit into 401, spare more time for my classmates 
- Be a good VP for AV, assist Jesslene in revamping the club a little to not let it die down

And lastly, treasure the last year in Nanyang.


12/29/09 06:52 pm - 希望越大，失望就越大

I've grown to realise something about myself.

How much does it affect you everytime someone breaks a promise he/she has made to you? Doesn't matter how big or small it is, but I've grown to realise that it might probably just be how much the person means to you. It might be a small promise to that person, and it might be for you as well, but it's the fact that the broken promise has caused this unseen-able, unrecognisable tear in your relationship that may be nothing alone but a whole big thing when accumulated with many others. Many times I've felt that tear many times I've brushed it across telling myself it's just me feeling thinking too much but who knows one day, just one day it'll just tear altogether. Are promises made meant to be broken? 既然你有能力许下那个承诺，就应该有能力完成它。I guess it's just me really disliking the feeling of disappointment. Is this when 希望越大，失望就越大 come into play?

Haha, the crapping skills developed from the R&amp;R essays are probably getting too much into my head.

12/28/09 08:00 pm - must it come to that?

Had a dream last night which made me think.

Hmmm so is it that there should always be something big happening to catalyst what you've always wanted to do, or to give you the courage or rather, maybe excuse, to tell yourself that yes, it is the time to (do whatever you have always wanted to do but didn't have enough push to do it).

Likelike, one of the examples I'm experiencing now is probably what a lot others are too - R&R essays, haha. I've got 2 more to go, and am/was procrastinating them still because I..just simply refuse to touch them haha. Only when I made a deal with my dad and said ah yes fine okay I'll finish my essays before I can touch the Mac, just let me have it before school starts (just to get him to hurry up and get it). And yes see it makes sense because I have to finish my essays before school starts right? Duh. But worse case scenario if I never ever get the Mac before school starts, does it mean that I won't finish my essays on time. K of course there's the possibility that I can just choose to ignore the essays and I just realised that this is not the best example for what I'm trying to put across because I HAVE to finish the essays no matter what -.- alright I'm rambling so I'll stop here.

Is the human mind so weak to overcome our self restraints to do what we've always wanted to do? Or yah right, "I'm just waiting for the right time to do it." I think this boils down to whether something has to happen before we'll regret our actions (or non-actions), but well like the word "Regret" with the capital letter R means, it would be too late. What would happen then?

Must it come to that?
Current Mood: indescribable

12/26/09 08:45 am - (used to be) war zone



Note: What you see are only my collection of soft toys. Omg I think I haven't touched that cupboard of mine more than 3 times ever since I moved into this house? Unless you count the number of times which I've ADDED to it. So I've cleared a lot a lot of them, like three big bags which I'm thinking of giving away to a children's home (OH maybe rchd?) or the salvation army, on top of a big white bag like the one you see at the bottom left hand corner which I'm dumping away.

And so I've finished packing my room! From my books/files to my wardrobe (omg it's halfempty now I need to go shopping soon haha) to my cupboard of soft toys, the last one being something really rare which I usually ignore when it comes to packing my room. And note to myself is that I should never start packing at 10 suddenly just because I have the feeling to do it because I'll end up sleeping at 2 which was what happened last night and the night before (just that the previous night I started packing from EIGHT, yup). Ahahaha but it feels good after the room's cleared (: oh and actually I realise as I grew older I stopped feeling like I shouldn't throw stuff away or to deliberate for half a minute whether this item should be dumped, because I realised that I probably won't come across it again till the next time I do a mass packing of my room. So the questions to ask when you're thinking whether you should or should not throw something away - Will you realise that it's gone? Do you need it? Is it just a waste of space?

(and at this point in time I realise my study table's still pretty messy -.- daddy I promise I'll get it cleared, wiped free of dust and everything when I see the white body which you know what I'm talking about. I think he's having a fun time testing my patience -.-)

12/24/09 12:05 am - Ground Zero

Like always, it was awesome after we had survived it (: though muscleaches are seriously terrible but it feels good after realising that these are the signs you managed to survive the P.T ahaha. Looking back, it started with me returning from Gentings the night before, going to Shiyan's house past 11 to get my blazer and camp booklet. Rushing around the house like a headless chicken trying to ensure I've got every single thing nothing more nothing less in the packing list, sleeping at 2 waking up past 5 to go to school.

Day One had activities like the cheering session where I started losing my voice after near 2 hours; "Once a Councillor, Always a Councillor" where the batch had our first taste of the sense of satisfaction after managing to complete saying the council pledge word by word without any mistakes while doing PT; "All the way!" and "Uno Stacko" where we do PT while a few people at the time were running around trying to collect all the puzzle pieces; "Bead It Together" where poor Joanne was muted for our group desperately trying to direct us how our Ground Zero 起飞 piece looked like.

Day Two literally started with a bang in the early morning at 5.30am. "WAKE UP! Everyone dress up gather all your things gather at the trophy cabinet in 4mins!" - and that wasn't part of the programmes given in the booklet. P.T with pushup position for 10mins which I totally sucked in for the batch's total count of extra/missing items in the packing list; uniform parade where there was chaos everywhere when we had to change from camp attire to formal uniform to camp attire to formal uniform to camp attire within a time limit of 5-7mins each time; "Our Hearts beat as One" where we went Kallang for dragon boating and went back to school after that with the fear that things are going to get worse after the fun; "只要相信，就不怕路远" where we realised trust really mattered like crazy when we were trying to get past a sort-of obstacle course formed with benches and tables; "All for one and One for all" where we thought was the main dish for the camp but turned not to be, instead the forming of a batch logo we came up with with country erasers like dominoes; and finally the traditional "Heaven and Hell" which wasn't in our programmes outline as well.

Heaven and Hell. I think most of Batch10 would agree that if we go through it again we'll probably all go mad, ahahaha. The night after that some of us had dreams/nightmares that were all related to it, like I was doing twinkies in my sleep and woke up a few times asking if I can put my arms down already, expecting a senior to scream at me the next second and realising it was a dream 'cos Sylvia was sleeping soundly beside me. HAHA insanity. I guess it is easy to see the point of this activity after we've all been through it together, because during the process of it all it is usually when you see each of us at our weakest. I started off at Heaven, went to Purgatory, did my first task which was the recitation of the council pledge successfully and feeling glad I managed to save someone from Hell. The next few times I went I failed to answer the questions but still it felt good that I could replace someone from Hell. Until there was the pushup position again and I couldn't hold on anymore and went back to Heaven with a cramped right hand and didn't manage to move my fingers for 15mins or so. The feeling at that time sucked, really. Being forced to sit down and not even cheer together with the rest of them who was in Heaven for those in Hell because I might strain my arm even more, thinking about how the rest are still suffering while the facil is massaging your hand, omg. Yup, so after that go back to Hell as soon as possible. At the end of it, the songs and cheers that we did together with the seniors felt really really good (:

Day Three wasn't a long day. Started off in the morning when we went jogging at the private estates near the school. Wasn't a long one, definitely a much shorter one in comparison to the one we did last year but we didn't have as bad muscleaches haha. Though it helped to loosen our muscles after that lah. Then the final activity was "Dive of your Life", where the seniors introduced it as the "worse activity ever with the most PT involved and the unknowing juniors were freaked out but Batch10 mostly guessed that it was another traditional council activity as well, which was the pulling of each other across the benches with soap and water activity haha. Funnn (: and the eating of watermelons was seriously hilarious :D Phototaking with this HUGE heart formed with balloons, and debrief after that.

And with that, the last December camp for Batch10's over. Somehow it's always that you'll wish for it to be over as fast as possible during the course of it but after it all you wished it haven't.

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Ground Zero, 起飞 <3


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